Road to parenthood

JOURNEY TO PARENTHOOD…

The shock…

We really did not expect to be pregnant because we’d been trying for a few years without success. For us it was hard to pinpoint when ovulation would take place because my periods were very irregular. So, every month I would take an ovulation test followed by a pregnancy test. (Did I mention how pricey this got once I’d added it all up). And each time the results were negative. Stressed-out , we decided to take a break from it all and focused on spending quality time with God and each other.

Obsession…

Sometimes trying to conceive can be stressful especially when it doesn’t go as planned. And in our case I noticed that I’d become so fixated on trying that it started to consume me. Needless to say, I became desperate, frustrated and confused. I couldn’t wrap my head around our situation. Why was it taking so long, what was wrong with my body and would we ever have a baby? My hubby had also noticed the amount of pressure that we were placing on ourselves. And so, we figured that if we would let go and relax it might just happen. I must confess that it felt really good to let go. In November of 2016 we did just that and six months after we found out that we were expecting.

I will say that during my morning talk with God, these verses would constantly popup in my thoughts or I would see them in my dreams:
> "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways", saith the Lord

> "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts" 

Isaiah 55:8-9

Working on my personal relationship with him gave me so much confidence, strength and peace. I also learned that no matter what may come my way, God is still on the throne and is totally in control. I realized that spending quiet time with God helped me to re-evaluate my purpose in this life. I'd learned how to let go and focus on God and not my circumstances. Prayer is a powerful tool and every time I was asked two questions during prayer, "Who do you say I am?" and "Who are you?" I pondered on these questions for weeks. What is the "correct answer"? What should I say?

Read part 2 to find out!

XOXO, Niki